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But then I was forced into college.

For these years, the love-hate, war and peace between me and my parents went on. Unfortunately, both of us can't tell which path is right until the end.

I should say, the path I am taking wasn't so bad. However, the other one could either be: I dance on the stages in New York like my partner do, or become a starving artist here. 

Life is such a miracle. Every time I think a path sucks, I always ended up in it. And it wasn't so bad after I gave my heart and soul.

There is a Zen story. A little monk asked the Master, "What is life?" And the Master took the boy to the toilet and sit on it himself for 30 minutes...... He finally uttered a word, "Life is like going to Poo Poo. You gotta do it yourself."

I am lucky enough to know myself for 30 years. So far the paths I took lead me to bigger and bigger dreams (or disasters). What if I can really merge whatsoever I touched on? The art, business, technology, etc. While I was thinking about it a very smart girl friend brought up the topic about the difficulty of managing and merging the art world with business world. Perhaps I will love to do that.  My time to step up.

It's pointless holding too tight to the old footprints.

I die this moment. Next moment I'm born.

Setting up 5 dates in a row is a bad idea.

(Yeah, better date 10 ... HAHAHA)

Gotta cancel them cos' I'm sure they will remind you more of the person you can dance and talk with chemistry.

Unlike men, who can jerk off their problems, women will let problems linger and repeat in their minds.

Yes, we are stupid human beings.

I remembered whenever I have emotional turmoils, there will be a ghost that rang me up dozens of times everyday but will hang up immediately as soon as he/she heard my voice. That led me to think either there has something to do with fate, or ghost, or whatever. And it followed me during the extire 3-year waiting. Yes, it's fucking tiring. (I can be damn sure I'm sane cos' all my colleagues know about it.)

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This time the phone doesn't ring. And suddenly, I feel so lonely.

It helped me to think.

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How many times will dramas and traumas repeat itself, and how I'm repeatedly stupid. Is this how we exhaust our lives?

Just like jumping, it will never end. So I tried to figure out the equation of our destiny. This could be the potential choices we have in our entire lives (P), times the ratio of tendency that we will feel exhausted by jumping (R). This will determine when are we going to settle down and hug what we have. So it goes like:-

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Destiny = P x R

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It's not like that. We jumped, we are tired and take a nap. And we jump again.

But after all these, the most important thing could be: we lived, we learned and we experienced.

This time I learned selfless love.

I have no regret.

Drama is no more drama in a city like this.
Say, your date tells you he will go for another girl. Even if this piece of news hit you hard, it’s just so easy to fix up 5 other dates in 30 minutes.
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Perhaps there are always too many choices available that we all ended up in frustration anyway. Everything starts too fast, goes too fast and ends too fast when we can easily jump to something new the next minute. We jump before we want to see something clearly enough.
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But what are we chasing after? The best? Or “more”?
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If being loyal is to live in traumas, will it feel better to be a bitch that fools around? I bet either way sucked.
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We are all uprooted.
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It's just hard to know what is right for us in this life journey of trial & error and making decisions (especially wrong ones).  Something strange is, we need to live long enough to know it's wrong AGAIN.
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I imagined when I become 40 something, after all these dramas and traumas, still the Top 5 stupid things in my mind (subject to change) could be:
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1.  Shit! I should have married Vincent
2.  Why didn’t I go for that fucking MBA?
3.  It’s too late to have kids
4.  Will I be the next one to die of cancer?
5.  I should be a bitch 15 years ago !!
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I just can't tell right and wrong. Perhaps in a heartless city like this, we are fast to forgive those who let us down (Perhaps it's just because I'm too inexperienced and make too much of everything). We can soon learn to live in this bizarre way. " You jump, I jump" as in Titanic. And are we all going to become devils?
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I have lost my balance now.

Stunning!!

I had a beautiful encounter with these great works at KAMPA PARK, on the river bank of Prague.

The unique open-air exhibition features the Land of the Beautiful Unknown (Zeme krásná neznámá). I'd better shut up. Enjoy.

Photographer: Yann Arthus-Bertrand.

(Source: yannarthusbertrand.org)

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